I’ve been reading a lot about depression over the past few weeks, and I have experienced it myself. When your hormones are out of control and you can’t think clearly, you must fight depression with truth. It is not easy because everything inside of you wants to give up. You want to go to bed and never get up again. But the words that are going through your mind are not based on truth. If you dwell on something that is not truth, it will become more and more distorted until your reality is warped.
Depression is based on overly-inflated emotions (hormones) that cause you to magnify anything negative in your life until it is unbearable. It is a spiral that you go down in your mind, allowing your mind to dwell on one thing. It’s incapacitating. Sometimes it makes you want to take your life. Taking your life is murdering yourself, so of course when these thoughts cross our minds, we are tempted to sin. Murdering anyone in a pre-meditated fashion (including the killing of ourselves) is wrong, and Scripture says that there is always a way out of temptation, and we are never forced to sin. (I Corinthians 10:13)
Scripture commands us to take every thought captive (II Corinthians 10:5). This means that when my hormones are out of control and I want to dwell on everything negative in my life, I can stop. At the very minimum, I can put my mind on something productive. Force yourself not to dwell on the negative, and you break the spiral down. You don’t have to bow down and worship your emotions and go down every rabbit trail in your mind until you’re debilitated. You have a will. You can choose your actions. You are fully responsible before God for every action, despite how you feel.
Many times depression is demonic. I feel a brain fog and a heaviness, and I can’t get anything done. When that happens, I call a fellow believer, and she prays over me. So many times the fog lifts, and I feel fully rested instantly. I have experienced this in my life so many times that I truly believe that Scripture is right: our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and powers and the rulers of darkness (Ephesians 6:12). If you are serving the Lord in ministry in any capacity, this is especially true. You must fight through prayer. The prayer of others over me often breaks the grip of incapacitation through exaggerated hormones or brain fog.
We have two swords to overcome deception: the Word of God and prayer. They are REAL. They break down strongholds and transform lives.
I talk about my struggle with depression and thoughts of suicide in my spiritual warfare audio (which is free). I also talk about depression during pregnancy, and what I did to overcome it in another free audio: Controlling Your Mind. Please don’t feel helpless. Grab control of your life regardless of your hormones, and ask God to transform your mind so that you can still accomplish your life purpose here on earth.